My Goal

Is to not have any more goals.

Train rides in the morning are horrible

How can anyone even stand taking the train in the morning?! (Arnd 7-8am aka. peak hour)
I hate it. I hate taking trains in the morning but i have to. First of all, the cabins are packed with lots and lotsa people! So many that you have to push and jostle your way through the doors of the train just to grab a space. Secondly, the sun is so damn scorching hot! It makes me perspire like hell!!! & Thirdly, people love stepping on my shoe/foot/slippers/whichever.

Fourthly, Singaporeans are the most selfish people in the world. They don't fucking bother moving into the centre of the cabin. Most of them just stand near the doors. Convenient for you i see. Selfish bastards/bitches/assholes. And because of that, sometimes i have to purposely miss 3-4 trains just to wait for another train that has space for me to squeeze myself in when the people are already packed like sardines at the door.

I had another bad experience this morning. :( A man stepped on my toes and didn't even turned around to apologise to me when i let out a yell because of the excruciating pain. I almost wanted to scream, "FUCK YOU!" at him and throw my laptop into his bloody face but i didn't. (Had to keep my image)

You see, how more inconsiderate/insensitive/selfish/self-centred/disregarding/careless can ALL YOU SINGAPOREANS BE? (This applies mainly to the working class adults.) DIDN'T YR MAMA TEACH YOU TO APOLOGISE PROFUSELY WHEN YOU ACCIDENTALLY/PURPOSELY STEPPED ONTO OTHER PPLE'S TOES? hurrrr?! RAWRRRRRR!!!!

Shame on you people. tsk tsk.

Self-esteem

Let's see what i've done for the past few weeks.....

Hmm... studying?

Exercising....

Study
Exercise

Study
Exercise
Study
Exercise.

& the list goes on.

Yeap, basically that.

How more boring can my life be....

I can't believe Angelina Jolie & Lily Allen actually do have self-doubt and they struggle from it time to time. I should be the one telling them, "Hey!!! I'm the one who's supposed to have it more than you!!" Yes, i'm self-critical and i've got issues about my body. And i think i need to do something about it.

My mst is approaching. I.Need.To.Score.So.Badly.

Home sweet home baby. 5 more days.

Who's this unknown?

I took this paragraph from Hazel's blog (i really hope you wouldn't mind, & you should be flattered :D wherever you got it from, it's so perfect) because i felt that it was so close to how i was feeling and that these words were what i was searching for to tell G.


"If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.
You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible." - Unknown


I'm sorry baby, i know you didn't sign up for all these shit from me but it's all part of the package. *winks*

j'adore.

Whoever that wrote this must be known.

Ck told me to read the writings on a card while we were at a popular bookstore td and i thought it was pretty funny so i decided to jot it down.

Here it goes,

We heard that you're leaving,
You really can't stay.

Your boxes are packed,

You're going away.

You can't be replaced -

that's totally true.

There isn't a match for someone like you.

But we'll get along,

You won't see us crying.

We'll try to be strong...

Oh heck!
We're all lying.

LOL.

Guilty Pleasure

What's yours?

:)

21 days

My Dark Knight in Shining Amour took off for Taiwan this morning and he would only be back after twenty-freaking-one days. :( Well i guess it's time for me to concentrate on my work and do some changes to myself before he gets back :)

I've been really busy with school, rushing reports, presentations, blah blah. You know, the usuals. Something good abt my course is that i don't have to dress up for presentation. I can practically flop through the whole presentation with my slippers on and still get good grades for it. (Provided if i did an excellent job in presenting my ppt) Heh.

Last Sat i had my first experience at Supperclub. It was not what i expected it to be. By the time gene & i arrived, it was already 2am and they played house electro till the party ended. Oh well, we missed out all the fun. =/ Plus there were lots of malays which made the entire scene pretty much ... sucky.

&omfg i just saw many things which i wanna get!!!!

Girls can never get enough of shopping

I'M FAT X100000000000000000000

I feel like shit now. Just because of a sentence he said, "You need to exercise, but she doesn't." Almost immediately my facial expression changed from a :) to a :( and then afterwards to a _|_ and now to a T.T

I'm gonna starve myself even more and hit the gym more often than ever. I hate myself. I only had two sandwhiches since this morning. Sounds like a good progress to me. Very soon i'll be hitting a uk size 4. FML. And then if other people continue to say it, i'll be a size 2 so i can fucking just quit school and go be a runway model.

FUCK THE WORLD FUCK MY LIFE AND FUCK MYSELF. I FUCKING HATE MYSELF TO THE CORE.