# 30

Lets see what i've been up to lately:

1) broke up with gene

2) learnt a lot from this r/s

3) hitting the gym

4) realized that i'm actually weighing only 45.2kg now

5) not happy at all. because i want a tonned body. mine is still flabby

6) devouring each and every book that comes along my way

7) magazines too

8) i feel like a free bird

9) many activities are coming my way

10) took out my braces. still not use to looking at my teeth in the mirror

11) getting my hair trimmed and dyed this wed weeeeeeeeeee!!!

12) i will definitely live my life even better from now

13) i hav a devious plan up my sleeve

14) i think my stomach became smaller

15) andy says,"you're fucking skinny now. i don't know you."

16) getting a sun tan next month

17) met up with liza & i miss her very much :(

18) shopping trip with julian next sat! :DDD

19) did 3 sets of 25 sit-ups

20) im in love with cranberry and vanilla absolut

21) feel like thanking everyone who made me this way (if u can even sense some sarcasm)

22) i will live up to my name

23) went to universal studios

24) felt like a tourist again!!!

25) but that place is nothing compared to tokyo disneyland

26) seoul garden tmr with 1b/21

27) just watched 'she's out of my league'

28) "never feel that you're not good enough for yourself."

29) learn to put in effort in areas where you can receive good results

30) can't wait to watch the a-team! "they are the best, and they specialise in the ridiculous."

My Goal

Is to not have any more goals.

Train rides in the morning are horrible

How can anyone even stand taking the train in the morning?! (Arnd 7-8am aka. peak hour)
I hate it. I hate taking trains in the morning but i have to. First of all, the cabins are packed with lots and lotsa people! So many that you have to push and jostle your way through the doors of the train just to grab a space. Secondly, the sun is so damn scorching hot! It makes me perspire like hell!!! & Thirdly, people love stepping on my shoe/foot/slippers/whichever.

Fourthly, Singaporeans are the most selfish people in the world. They don't fucking bother moving into the centre of the cabin. Most of them just stand near the doors. Convenient for you i see. Selfish bastards/bitches/assholes. And because of that, sometimes i have to purposely miss 3-4 trains just to wait for another train that has space for me to squeeze myself in when the people are already packed like sardines at the door.

I had another bad experience this morning. :( A man stepped on my toes and didn't even turned around to apologise to me when i let out a yell because of the excruciating pain. I almost wanted to scream, "FUCK YOU!" at him and throw my laptop into his bloody face but i didn't. (Had to keep my image)

You see, how more inconsiderate/insensitive/selfish/self-centred/disregarding/careless can ALL YOU SINGAPOREANS BE? (This applies mainly to the working class adults.) DIDN'T YR MAMA TEACH YOU TO APOLOGISE PROFUSELY WHEN YOU ACCIDENTALLY/PURPOSELY STEPPED ONTO OTHER PPLE'S TOES? hurrrr?! RAWRRRRRR!!!!

Shame on you people. tsk tsk.

Self-esteem

Let's see what i've done for the past few weeks.....

Hmm... studying?

Exercising....

Study
Exercise

Study
Exercise
Study
Exercise.

& the list goes on.

Yeap, basically that.

How more boring can my life be....

I can't believe Angelina Jolie & Lily Allen actually do have self-doubt and they struggle from it time to time. I should be the one telling them, "Hey!!! I'm the one who's supposed to have it more than you!!" Yes, i'm self-critical and i've got issues about my body. And i think i need to do something about it.

My mst is approaching. I.Need.To.Score.So.Badly.

Home sweet home baby. 5 more days.

Who's this unknown?

I took this paragraph from Hazel's blog (i really hope you wouldn't mind, & you should be flattered :D wherever you got it from, it's so perfect) because i felt that it was so close to how i was feeling and that these words were what i was searching for to tell G.


"If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.
You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible." - Unknown


I'm sorry baby, i know you didn't sign up for all these shit from me but it's all part of the package. *winks*

j'adore.

Whoever that wrote this must be known.

Ck told me to read the writings on a card while we were at a popular bookstore td and i thought it was pretty funny so i decided to jot it down.

Here it goes,

We heard that you're leaving,
You really can't stay.

Your boxes are packed,

You're going away.

You can't be replaced -

that's totally true.

There isn't a match for someone like you.

But we'll get along,

You won't see us crying.

We'll try to be strong...

Oh heck!
We're all lying.

LOL.

Guilty Pleasure

What's yours?

:)